Proud to be an eagle 🦅 and feeling super grateful because during our first match a pattern I have was challenged, broken down and change was able to sprout up in its place. I’m right where I need to be. #redemptionseason
I grew up a beach baby 🏖👶🏼 but what is so funny is the fact that I didn’t really know how to play beach volleyball until I lived in 🥔 Idaho 🥔 and my indoor coach @shawngarus broke the beautiful game down for me! 🏐 @boisestatevb got a sand team the year after I graduated and I wanted to use up all my eligibility but I couldn’t afford another year of school. I thought about trying to talk to other schools because I knew I had a time limit on that 5th year, but I never followed through. It’s amazing to remember I thought I was done and believed to my core that I would never be back in school.
A lot of things have changed for me (like realizing I love to learn)...life tends to do that to you if you let it. I count it as one of the biggest blessings of my life that I get to do a fifth year for @concordiabeach 🦅 and continue learning this strategy game I love so much 💗 and learning more everyday about the game of life and on top of it all, getting my masters (which I still can’t believe 🙀) I’m so grateful for each person and circumstance that weaved through my story and helped me create this reality.
The good things in store for us, man, are beyond our wildest dreams ✨
That 1 on the calendar looks a lot like opportunity. Feeling like I got some good practice last year of jumping high, reaching for it and also a lot of crashing and splashing. Ready to do it all again hopefully with small or big improvements. Any type of progression will do. I’m mostly water and this planet is mostly water so the odds are in my favor to jump as high as I can even if I fall because you see the way my life is set up it all gets worked out for good 🙌🏼☝🏼
A younger me was a fool to assume I was out of the woods with self-esteem issues 🤦🏼♀️ I don’t own a scale, don’t weigh myself everyday, and the only time my weight really changed was when I was in college. It made sense because I was lifting heavy and eating so much. But other than that, I can pretty much guess how much I will weigh when I step on the scale at the doctors office twice a year. Since that was what I thought most women struggle with, I was in the clear, right?
I also didn’t have bad acne as a teenager. Although for some odd reason, the older I got the worse my acne got. Worse than the acne was my anxious habit of picking any type of bump on my face. The older I got the more responsibility and stress I carried and the more I relied on this weird habit to relieve it. I would cover up scabs with makeup and people would tell me it was not that bad, but I felt like a fraud every single day. Even though I knew it would make it look worse I would pick until I didn’t even really recognize my face anymore. My self esteem was so low it made it hard to leave the house on a daily basis. I’ve come to find out staying inside all day automatically makes me feel “depressed” so it was this sick cycle that just kept feeding itself. I was so anxious all the time about the way people would view me when they saw my face. To circle back to the top, anytime someone would compliment my body it feel like a stab...who cares about what below my neck looks like!! I don’t even recognize myself!! I have this fake mask on that’s not the real me and I can’t take it off! It made me question who I even was and what I was worth.
This picture is edited and I have make up on, I’ll show you the before if you want. But it marks the first time in a long time I’m starting to recognize my face again. I still struggle with picking but I think I’ve come to terms that I don’t have a bad skin problem, I have a lot of anxiety. And slowly but surely I am embarking on a journey to feel those waves of anxiety in a healthy way and watch them as they roll away 🌊
My favorite feeling when you travel is seeing a new beach for the first time and it’s so shockingly beautiful that you get this calming, grounding feeling that everything is going to be alright for the world and everyone in it ✨ You can’t forget those first steps that your toes dip into the warm, inviting sand 👣 #iflyalaska@alaskaair@darling
A simple stroll to the market with this babe and her babes sure did fill me up today!
Not to mention, a firing sunset 🔥 some cool clouds ☁️ Autumn’s Spanish and excited laugh 😆 and of course, love me some words of affirmation 🎵➡️👂🏼