I suppose it’s like the ticking crocodile, isn’t it? time is chasing after all of us. — she’s about a real as it gets. we are all being chased. and I think of all the lessons a dog’s life can teach us, I think knowing that this life has to be lived day by day. moment by moment; that’s the lesson we need to learn so dearly. — because if I get struck by lightning tomorrow, did I love enough today? did I forgive enough today? did I do something worth leaving behind? — without knowing it, bella has done all this. full force. every day. — she’s not mad at me for disciplining her. she’s not questioning her place in the world. she’s not questioning her love for others. — if bella gets struck by lightning tomorrow, wow, did she live today. she loved me. she loved her brother. she loved her whole fam. that’s all she’s got. and if I get struck. how did i spend today? scared. bitter. anxious. stressed. happy. sad. exhausted. a mixed bag of it all. — sometimes it hits me. I’ve been struck by lightning. it was her. she’s once in a lifetime. and I got hit. she’s never going to happen again. so I better love her today like we don’t get tomorrow.